i shouldn’t be allowed to love. and i shouldn’t be allowed to tell myself that because it hurts. it hurts deep.
but it’s because i love too hard
i get attached too fast and then I think think think
think about it too much
and i cry about you and i talk about you and the sound of your voice brings a smile to my lips and my heart rises and beats and skips and i can’t stop thinking about you no matter how hard i try
i would pay rent to live inside your head the way you live inside of mine
the thing about loving hard is that you fall down hard too
i worry about you i get sick over you i wish I didn’t notice everything about you but there’s a part of me that can’t help but notice things that don’t ask for attention and i curse under my breath because this happened last time and the time before that and there will never be a version of me that doesn’t love hard because
maybe that’s the way i wanna be loved
maybe I care too much because I want to be cared about
and it kills me because i know that most people only know how to love softly because they’re too afraid of what will happen when they fall
not me
i’ve already fallen
I couldn’t eat for three days because of a boy who broke my heart
how is that fair?
felt, you are not alone, this is so raw and real, and just a beautiful poem
“i would pay rent to live inside your head the way you live inside of mine”
“this happened last time and the time before that and there will never be a version of me that doesn’t love hard because
maybe that’s the way i wanna be loved”
i can sense the pain and frustration and fear and sadness. i’m sorry
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thank you 🥹
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Felt!! It’s always hard to love more then you’re loved.. I think everyone wishes to be loved the way they love. I’m sure you’ll find the type of love that fits you perfectly one day ❤
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“i would pay rent to live inside your head the way you live inside of mine” wow this hits
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dude I understand this on a whole other level
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okay, i just read this out loud in B6 and it was my favorite thing i’ve shared today (even more than my own stuff)
so strong, so passionate, so hard
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thank you so much that just made my whole life :,)
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i shouldn’t be allowed to love.# stolen
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“i love too hard” me too
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it’s so real
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